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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
Sunday January 22nd, 2006 6:20pm	beach i basically live with emmalee, or she leaves with me. and we like to do ghb, start fires in steves backyard, cause drama, be antisocial, and hangout with steve. ohyeah.
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Monday, January 16th, 2006
Monday January 16th, 2006 7:17pm	im tired i hate car rides without you next to me
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Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
Wednesday January 4th, 2006 9:22pm	i do beans and bite my lip excellent day emmalee is great. but for some reason my left pointer finger hurt... i dont know why my knees hurt from the lifeguard stand. and so does my arm from quite a workout... yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Monday, January 2nd, 2006
Monday January 2nd, 2006 10:50pm	hehehe this is late, and childish, and stuck up but i dont give a shit. i know this is coming a little late now so sorry but there are no apologies written here for you, i had to step back and reexamine all those wasted nights lies and heartbreaking is all your good at, its all your worth thank you for putting me through the worst time of my life i know it wont ever be worse. the chemicals all have gotten to your head now quit denying it youve lost all contact and the best thing that ever and ever will happen to you is now gone im gone im gone im gone forever lies and heartbreaking is all your good at, its all your worth thank you for putting me through the worst time of my life i know it wont ever be worse. hey yeah you fucked me up! but i got you too. i hope you never ever forget me and all i was i was the best you ever had and will have the best love youll ever see the best lay youll ever have Current Mood: accomplished
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Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
Wednesday November 30th, 2005 1:16pm	and i'll wear glass shoes and plastic wrap. no, i'll just wear my insides. you wanna know who i really am. yeah so do i.  confusing past few weeks.  too much to write.  hatehatehate/lovelovelove Current Mood: mellow Current Music: See You - Saves The Day
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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
Thursday November 17th, 2005 9:04am	I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking off her clothes. so true. its time to get my life back in line, my grades back up. yeah. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Panic! At The Disco
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
Sunday November 13th, 2005 9:13pm	my take i find myself questioning why i said and did last night to you. i have basically thought about it all day long, and i know i will still think about it more. here are the things that i KNOW. i know i love you. that is what makes this so hard. i know that you cared about me. i am the only one that could have made you do what you did for me. but on a day to day basis, you didnt really show that you cared. i cried daily, usually because of something between us. i was always feeling down and depressed. it was a tough decision, and the fact is, is that i do love you, but sometimes things just dont work out in certain ways and will have a different result than expected. i can never forget anything between us. you mean a lot to me and no matter what i will always be here for you. if you need someone to talk to, to cry to, to just hang out with to get your mind off of certain things. i am here. the things you did for me, were not just for me. they were for yourself. stuff you needed to do to get your life in line. please try and stay that way. i know that things will work out for the both of us. you will be happy. one time you said something to me that has always stuck in my head. you said you dont think there is just one person for you in the world, and wherever you go, you could find someone that you make a great connection with. well when you find that person. dont let them treat you and less than i did. that is how you deserve to be treated. except that whole cheating thing that was fucked up and i greatly regret it and i apologize. thank you for everything. i love you. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Tech Romance - Her Space Holiday
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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
Wednesday November 9th, 2005 8:53pm	Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore She loves salting my wounds Yes, she enjoys nothing more I bleed confidence from deep within my guts now I'm the king of this pity party with my jewel encrusted crown I wanna tear apart your room to see if what you say is true Darling don't you lie, lie to me I wanna break into your heart to see why you want us apart Oh, I'm scared to death to find out what you think of me Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore She loves salting my wounds Yes, she enjoys nothing more I bleed confidence from deep within my guts now I'm the king of this pity party with my jewel encrusted crown According to you we don't click, that's a blatant lie and you know it Angel, what are you hiding from me? If there is truly another secret lunch-break, working late lover then I would die, but at least then I'd be free Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore She loves salting my wounds Yes, she enjoys nothing more I bleed confidence from deep within my guts now I'm the king of this pity party with my jewel encrusted crown Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore She loves salting my wounds Yes, she enjoys nothing more I bleed confidence from deep within my guts now I'm the king of this pity party with my jewel encrusted crown Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore She loves salting my wounds Yes, she enjoys nothing more I bleed confidence from deep within my guts now I'm the king of this pity party with my jewel encrusted crown
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Wednesday November 9th, 2005 12:15am	hey i got cheated on too
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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
Tuesday November 8th, 2005 4:45pm	fuck you stay awake you wont let me down you wont let me down got back with monica. she told me to come pick her up from school today, i drove down there and i get a call from her and she says she cant hang out. i was pretty pissed i drove all that way and she couldnt call me earlier but she said she had school. oh wait she lied and didnt go to school great start :(:( Current Mood: crushed Current Music: I feel like dying
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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
Sunday November 6th, 2005 11:07am	georgia come here. please hold my hand, lord now help me. im scared please show me how, to fight this. god has a master plan, and i guess i am in his demand. ^idk why. i like it though. and tLtL cd is excellent. coming soon. i love my friends. they are great. and bacon. its tasty. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Blink 182 - Not Now
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Saturday, November 5th, 2005
Saturday November 5th, 2005 4:03pm	ugh the last thing i want you to think is that i didn't or dont care about you. anyone who says i OBVIOUSLY didnt care for you is a fucking idiot and needs to mind their own business. about the sex? yeah right. if it was about the sex... would i have asked you to be my girlfriend after that first night? do you not think i could find someone that doesnt live 45 minutes away from me to have sex with? would i have took you to wal-mart to buy school supplies if it was about the sex? please.. give me a break that kid. does not know me. does not know US. why dont you ask some people that know US. and know ME as a person. maybe then i will hold their opinion in regard. i could keep on listing the reasons on why i cared for you. but i dont think i need to. the last thing i want you to think is that i didnt care. i still do care. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Hey There Deliliah- Plain White Ts
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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
Thursday November 3rd, 2005 8:38pm	prayers please pray for my uncle Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Silverstein
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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
Wednesday November 2nd, 2005 8:30am	i lovED you, i LOVE you, and ALWAYS WILL love you. i just wish there was a better way to show it or prove it. i know it doesnt seem right or good right now. but please believe me when i say i love you. please. Current Mood: horrible Current Music: hidden in plain view
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Friday, October 28th, 2005
Friday October 28th, 2005 12:34am	the week is over for me. thank god. it went by kind of fast so that is good. busy busy weekend i am going to orlando YAY. tonight was the most beautiful night. when i got home there was not a cloud in the sky and all the stars were shining bright. it was chilly out, but not too cold. just enough for a small jacket. wonderful Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Head Automatica
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
Tuesday October 25th, 2005 3:41pm	still =) life is still good. right now... im freezing my ass off at a bmx track watching monica practice... oh the wonders of wireless internet. and for anyone who doesnt think florida gets cold... it does. according to weather.com it is 62 degrees right now. i dont wanna hear it philly. face it florida is colder. monica is great. yc this week.. twice i believe. once in orlando once in st pete on halloween. i miss dudek. i know we didnt part on the best note.. but she was the best friend i ever had. idk why i am saying this. i need someone to beat my ass and keep me in line when i cant keep my mouth shut... or something else stupid. :-\ goodtimes Current Mood: cold Current Music: The Crown of Love - The Arcade Fire
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Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
Sunday October 23rd, 2005 11:29am	=) last entry was thursday and that was a bad night. FRIDAY- went to monica's. got asked out by monica. everything went back to how it was which is what i have wanted all along. had some good sushi, wasted time at michael's SATURDAY- went to monica's. her and ashley died her hair.. i like it. she cooked me pizza and it was really good. oh yeah we watched the OC... her new favorite character is luke. and she likes oliver. yes. Wilma is coming towards us. No school tomorrow, that is good. I love my girlfriend. Current Mood: touched Current Music: Accidental Death - Rilo Kiley
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
Thursday October 20th, 2005 11:31pm	its funny how many songs can fit the situation.. but i think this one means the most... i want to hate you so bad but i cant anymore than you can. youve got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat. i dont think anything will make this all seem okay now.. i still care, and will always care. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Hidden In Plain View... also. ugh
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Thursday October 20th, 2005 1:58am	.... i never thought i would have to be the one saying all of this stuff... i do not understand her. it is not fair. i gave her all of my heart-and i feel as if i only get half of hers. i feel as if i am not good enough for her, even after everything i have done. i do so much for her, as much as i possibly can... i drive 45 minutes to see her nearly everyday, i constantly buy her things, and give her what she wants. im not complaining because i do not regret any of it, i love to give her what she wants and to see her smile... that is all i want i would give her anything, seriously anything to make her happy but i do not think that is enough.. any guy wouldve left when she said she had other feelings for someone else any guy wouldve lefe when she walked away from me for getting high any guy wouldve left when she talked to the ex for an hour and i was sitting in her front yard... i feel like such a dick saying all of this but i can not help it. its SO TRUE she says she cares... if she really cared, she would make her decision im not sure why i get so upset or mad, i think it is because i love her... yes love her. she needs to do something with herself i do not deserve this noone deserves this i dont know what to do.. just sit and wait? im going completley insane... i cant sleep i cant eat why? i hate to say this.. but why would he ever be right for her? i do not know him.... but there is no way he can be right. im sure he is a great guy... but he had his chance. he should have lost his chance. he needs to start thinking about his future, she needs to think about the present. they cannot work out like we could. what does he have that i dont? i feel led on. she cares, i know she does she needs to handle the situation i would do anything and everything for her to be happy.... i am not going anywhere. shes got me drinking. i HATE to drink i get the worst hangovers im such a lightweight but im afraid without the alcohol i will not be able to sleep sorry for babbling on Current Mood: cynical Current Music: Bruised - Jack's Mannequin
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Sunday, October 16th, 2005
Sunday October 16th, 2005 1:42pm	cornered, the boy kicked out at the world the world kicked back a lot fucking harder now... have we enough to keep it together? or do we just keep on pretending, and hope our luck is never ending... Current Mood: depressed Current Music: The Libertines - Cant Stand Me Now
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